Yesterday, it was SO nice out so after the girls got home from school, we ventured out to the park,

Life is.....good right now. It definitely has its ups and downs, but overall, Im pretty blessed. The girls are growing up so quickly. Its crazy. I'll catch myself just staring at them in disbelief at how beautiful and grown up they are.

Im slowly getting my photography biz up and running. Getting my foot in the door anyways. I finally am at a point where I feel pretty confident that if I really want this, I can do it. I know I have alot to learn still, but I feel, for once, really positive and hopeful. Deep down, I know I'm better than what I think I am, I've always been my own worst critic, and its funny because Im normally such a positive person when it comes to most things & other people, just never with myself. Weird how that works.

I'm going to Phoenix this weekend to see my amazing boyfriend, Our 2 month anniversary just passed, although that doesnt seem that long, it feels like Ive known Matt forever. Weve been talking, non stop, since this past October, so maybe that has something to do with it. Ive gotten to the point to where I really cant imagine my life without him. Hes become such an important part of my life and I am constantly reminded at how lucky and blessed I am to have such a amazing person like him in my life. I adore him SO much and I hope he knows just how much he means to me <3 I'm SO stoked for this weekend, it feels like forever since Ive seen him. The distance really sucks. Alot. *sigh* I cant wait to be in the same city and see each other on more frequent basis. I miss him more and more everyday.

Next month is my birthday AND Vegas for my good friend Melissas wedding. Words cant even describe my excitement. Its been a minute since Ive been to Vegas, so for that alone I'm pretty excited. But then to be spending it with some of my most favorite people, uggggh, hurry up May :)

Speaking of, there are so many places I want to visit this year. Seattle, NC this fall to visit some friends, Chicago! I really hope I can land a job soon, despite this ridiculously shitty economy, or that my photography really starts picking up. I know thats more me, I've really got to start focusing on my marketing and getting my name out there, I know I've been slacking. My friend suggested making some business fliers to post around, and maybe different marketing tips/tricks/promotions so I need to buckle down and get that stuff together.

I've been feeling pretty blah lately about alot of things. My relationships with certain people in my life. Or rather, alot of people in my life. I think Im just ready for a change. I've grown so comfortable with things/people that really arent "right" or healthy for me whatsoever. I really need to just do a little spring cleaning in that department, but I just...am hesitant. Its much easier said than done. School. Ugh. I really dont even want to talk about it. It is SO fucking frustrating to have to work my goals and life around other third party schedules, especially when I ALWAYS seem to get the short end of the stick. The only thing stopping me right now is scheduling with the girls. Itd just be really nice, if for once, people would be willing to work as a team rather than turn everything into a battle. Its so exhausting and really, depressing. I've been really, REALLY slacking with working out and eating healthier. Although, Ive made small changes, like no more nachoes(hey, thats a big deal for me, cause if you know me && nachoes, we are in loveeee. I miss && think about them everyday. And yes, I know how sick that is, haha), significantly cutting down on caffiene, aka Rockstars. I sneak one here and there, but compared to the 4+ I was drinking everyday, one a week is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I tried working out last week, but I dont think my body is quiet ready. My hip& foot were killer the day after, I felt like I did the day after the accident. Pretty disappointing honestly, because I know I'm really not that far away from \where I ideally want to be, just a little more waiting I guess. This patience thing... yeah. I need some.

Today my horoscope says I need to have more faith in myself. It creeps me out somedays how accurate it is. Amen <3