Friday, February 11, 2011
Mayson is at that stage now where I cannot go ANYWHERE without her following right behind me, literally on top of my heels. She wants to be picked up and held allllll the time. She will ONLY fall asleep laying on me. Not next or near to me, but literally right on top of me. And the second I move, shes awake and crying and climbing back on top of me. This is how it is for nap times as well. She lets me know shes ready for a nap cause she'll grab her pillow pet and blanket and come to wherever I am and tug on my pants leg or climb on top of me. It is so sweet and I love it, but it makes it SO hard to get things done. Even worse, I originally planned on having her start sleeping in her own bed, every night, instead of mine(we co-sleep). Now, I can't even imagine trying, she's so clingy. She's such a bed && pillow hog, I just want my bed back!
I feel SO overwhelmed lately. I wish I could just press a pause button and everything would freeze, and I could take a minute and sit down and allow my mind to just relax and take a deep breathe and unwind, just for a few minutes. I am pretty much the worst decision maker. Ever. I can't stand being faced with one choice vs another. I overthink everything, and so I find it hard to make up my mind because Im overthinking each decision. Does that make sense?! Things always make sense when I say them in my head and then get lost along the way to my mouth. Anyways, I have a billion things that need deciding and the majority of them are pretty life changing. Hence = overwhelmed.
As you can probably tell from the numerous picture posts, I've been picking up and using my camera alot more lately. Its been kind of wonderful, I forgot how much I missed it. And I'm pretty sure I can see some improvement overall, so thats kind of wonderful too. I've got some shoots planned with people outside of my immediate family so that is pretty exciting. Wish me luck!
I miss my boyfriend like CRAZY. C-R-A-Z-Y. This distance thing is so hard. I honestly could not imagine how people had long distance relationships before texting/emailing/skyping. Speaking of, Skype is pretty much the greatest thing everrrr. Skype dates= win. Matt pointed out to me the other night that we have talked EVERYDAY for the past almost 4 months. And when I say talk, I mean phone calls, texting from when we wake up to when we go to sleep, emailing and skyping, thats pretty amazing. We never run out of things to talk about! Its become a huge part of daily routine now. Anyways, I super miss him and I might go bananas if I dont get to see his gorgeous face soon. True story.
Oh and on a random note, but it really trips me out when Angelyna says things like "isnt this shirt sick mom?" or when she calls me from her dads house just to tell me she hopes I have a nice weekend.
OH OH and funny things Rylan says:
#489 *She was going to the bathroom and I was brushing my teeth* "Mom, my poop says its shy and it needs you to get out of the bathroom so it can come out" "Hurry, I need to get this done"
♥our lips must always be sealed
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